Brace yourself..

..for a vent.

I have been indulging in lots of introspection lately. I've been doing my current job for nearly four years and in that time have had a baby and worked full time. My job is very stressful and starts at 5.30 each day when I work remotely on my computer. I then turn off my computer at 6.30am and get the kids ready for school and daycare and leave for work at 7.30. From the moment I get to work my day is frenetic. I love my job but it is extremely demanding. I am a DP at a P-12 school and responsible for managing the calendar, staff, senior students and overall development of the College. I finish work at 5pm, rush home to pick up Bella and then Kel and I cook tea, spend time with kids, put them to bed, clean up and then I always fall asleep as soon as I turn the TV on - despite my best efforts to try and stay awake and do some reading for the Masters course I am trying to complete. A difficult day to 'do' with 3 children.
Anyway..I think I'm tired. (It is always dangerous to admit this because once you verbalise it, you start to realise how really tired you are and you know you need to actually do something about it.)

I had a meltdown at work this week, so Kel and I have decided I need to get away - from work and the kids, just for a couple of days. Organising this is a challenge in itself, but I am looking forward to it. I want to just sit for a day, have no mobile, laptop, diary, lunches to make, lecture notes staring at me, permission notes to sign, piles of washing, no rushing..

I love my job and adore my little ones, but I have not had a weekend without any of the children for over 12 years and this last 2 years in particular have been incredibly taxing.

See you on the other side..